I'm welling up just trying to type this. After everything I've done to you and your family - the lies, the betrayal, the physical pain, the mental anguish, the losses...you can still find forgiveness. And not just in the "at peace" sense, but in the biblical sense where you are actually turning the other cheek and...loving me?
I will forever live with the ghosts that chill me to the bone, the screams that deafen my very soul every night, and the crystal-clear visions that stab at me every time I close my eyes. It's a punishment I wouldn't wish on my own worst enemy (Juan). Sometimes, when I'm soaping myself in the shower, the oily stroking reminds me of too much. A week ago I was stuffing a whole chicken and collapsed in a fit of anxiety. It follows me everyday. It all does.
However, your love. To have that, is a little bit of sunlight in my otherwise pitch-black mire of despair.
I love you all
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Re: I love you all
yeah, SLOB HIS KNOB. or maybe a gummer for ol' times sake.
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lost it.Specially Cork wrote:I'm welling up just trying to type this.
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Re: I love you all
|darc| you better not be lying. I love you way harder.
SCO=SCUM=M$=SCO it keeps repeating
i'm a randite
DYTDMFBSB?
There must have been some mistake
I'm not the one who should be saved
My divinity has been denied
Mary and me were both fucked by God
i'm a randite
DYTDMFBSB?
There must have been some mistake
I'm not the one who should be saved
My divinity has been denied
Mary and me were both fucked by God